Why do i let it bother me?

I sit here every day and night telling myself that I’m over him, I’m over the loved we so call shared. I wonder countless time was i the fool in the relationship tending to his every needs. I was promised so much at the beginning and like a child i held on to every promise that was made, when i shouldn't have, i should of had my armor up and my soldiers ready for battle. I should have seen the signs of a heart break when his family warned me, i should have seen the heart break when he lied countless time about stupid things...Was i really blinded by love or did i just blind myself? Now that its all said and done he’s gone and didn't even look back, didn't even cared of the damage that may have been done, didn't even think that this was some ones heart, He just up and gone. Its funny you would think cause all the heart break he brought i wouldn't be sad his gone and trust me I’m not, I’m just mad, disappointed, and heartbroken. Never would i’ve thought that if you help some one out that much that they would do you that badly, because of the simple reason that you don’t act the way they want you to but still you put up with there attitude longer then he may have put up with your. Its funny how people change when things don’t go there way, It funny how everything can become a lie at the end of it all and its funny how love can be thrown around with not a care in the world. It makes you wonder, it makes you think...do people ever mean what they say nowadays?

Live And Learn

My heart has been broken, Torn and Destroyed

Things were said and emotion were toyed 

given all that i could yet taking for granted

beard all i could bear, left, cause i couldn't stand it

when i look back on things was i the fool 

did all the work while he broke the rules

gave him my body my mind and my soul

told him i love him and ill never let him go

but when he got his he left me behind

remind you i help him, damn musta been outta my mind

cared for him when no one else would 

told him he was the best and gave what i could

I not gonna lie, he got me good,

he was a classic case of a gold Digging Dude

Take your money and run far as he can 

can’t catch him, he’s like the ginger bread man

Learn a lesson when its all said and done

dnt trust and man with no job and dnt put you number one

with no goal and anything going for him 

and listen y\to his family warnings

Cause when they say to leave him

do it especially if his name is STEVEN!!!! LMAO

Never realize what some one mean until there hard to touch

Locked behind Bar... heart beating fast... don't you fell the rush

Love ones taking away because of a ignorant Mind

Innocent soul doing hard core time

Never thought it would be the last time i kiss your lips

now because of some kid all you see are bricks

sun light nowadays come hard to find

now im still here like why he got to do time

Just last week we was wrestling down

talking in the future like how we was gonna settle down

now i gotta see you through a glass wall

sitting here tryna tell you just stand tall

all torn up cause my hearts taken away

split up by force...didnt even have a say

tell him i love him over the phone

he telling me he love me and just be strong

now he sitting here having to do time

&& its funny cause it wasnt even his crime =(

two little girls aint wanna take the blame

got my boo in jail going half near insane

Now theres nothing to do but sit and wait

&& wait

&& wait

&& wait

cause at this point wat happen will have to be fate.